Initially I found that all I wanted to eat was comfort food but not much of it. I felt hollow and empty, but without appetite. When I did want to eat, the foods I craved were all comfort foods - rich, pillowy, and buttery. The ones that weren't sweet and creamy were crispy and salty.
As you might expect, after eight weeks or so, I began to feel a bit more pillow-y myself than I'm comfortable with. I reviewed the Ten Guidelines and decided it was time to give some loving attention to the food I was eating.
I took a hard look at what I wanted to change, and what I didn't. For example, I realized I was drinking far more coffee than I wanted to drink in the course of a day. Rather than impose an arbitrary limit on myself that my Rebel Child would only delight in breaking, I decided to stop drinking coffee at nine AM every morning. After nine AM, I decided to drink mineral water (which I really enjoy in summer) or cold tea made with the herbs I grow in my gardens. (My favorite is chocolate-mint.) Because caffiene withdrawal can trigger migraine headaches, I decided that depending on how I felt every afternoon around 3 or 4 PM, I would have one or two cups of coffee in the afternoon. For me, this is a reasonable way to cut back on the amount of coffee I drink every day.
I also looked at the amounts of rainbow foods - fruits and veggies - I've been eating. Predictably, I've been eating a lot of red foods - strawberries, cherries, beets, red potatoes - which correspond to the first chakra. Grief is such a heart-chakra emotion that I immediately decided to add greens to every meal - including breakfast. ("You're eating salad for breakfast?" my husband asked. "Yep," I answered.)
I'll post more about my journey tomorrow, but please feel free to leave your comments and experiences about how grieving has affected your sense of wellness, dear Readers.